Now it's been a year and some days

Get the F outta here yo. I can't believe I still have this blog...Funny. It's Friday YO 3 day weekend - whaddup? I'm about to be a certified BCAT TV producer. EXCITING ! ! ! ! ! and this weekend who knows what goes on. BBQ? Poker ? (I don't even know her)...so much to say and so little energy to say it. Losing weight (again), getting hair cut today - how ballsy will I be? Facebook is the new craze yo. Happy PAPPY about the TV show Rach and Kev and Bry are making. Wondering where Shelley went. Miss Rochelle - come on home sistah ! ! ! My peeps have abandoned me (not really) but on their own whatevers right now...WOW...Speaking at a "M" at lunch time and leaving here at 3:30pm - Bring it on BROTHAS...

One more year at my BR pad? Guy this year? The guy? Hope so...I'm ready doncha think? We'll see.

Love the PEEPS in my life right now...Wondering how Larry is doing? Some stuff in my building - renewing my lease even though the LL said he wouldn't...What? Against the law to not renew? A-YA....

I'm a poker fool who needs a break - TV class took a lot out of me but WORTH IT!

Let's bring on the next challenge(s)...I'm up for so much more!

Yeah for me....Happy days!

Now it's been 4 years

Oh hello blogger.com or whatever the f you are. Here I is...wrote a book, been a finalist and by far what I feel is my greatest achievement in years is playing a double header yesterday (softball)...on two different teams....HILARIOUS....got two hits total and brought in a tying run which helped the other team I was helping out win that game.

V was all over me as usual (and everyone else except I was the only applicant today), and the ump (sweet guy) guessed my age WAY OFF (4 years older - whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa?)...I made him pay - the ball (me catcher) hit him like 2 times.

Bees were everywhere...big ass carpenter bees... a bunch were mating and 3 at once on the ground - I did the 70's porn music to it as about 5 of us in the middle of the game looked on.

Life is good....

Where is my tax money? April's rent is late late late and the whore downstairs is back to banging on my ceiling...oh joy.

holy christ it's been 2 years

I can't believe I haven't put a "blog" in in that long and I've been writing my "temp diary" for over a year now...what to do...shall I put some of my diary in here? thinking thinking we shall see...

Dear God,
thank you for my cats...I love them so...each one is
so individual = personality wise...I woke up this morning
with Honey West on my side - literally on my body purring
very loudly the motor sound she makes...it makes me smile
I had a dream that my friend PM was putting on a show that
was funny, and asked me to partake in it...

I had another dream where I had a new boyfriend (older) and one of
my sisters and a friend (I can't remember who now) was there and I
was very shy around him and he me and there was marijuana involved
I was hiding behind the marijuana and I had to take a test as well...

Funny, I have a date tonight so what relevance does the dream have for me
God help me today and tonight in all my affairs, for I am fearful and excited
and I need your help in moving forward...not too fast but exactly at the speed
you recommend....

I have finished my first cup of coffee and am yearning for a second which I
will allow myself to have.

I have been good on my food plan this week, one glich, but not totally my
fault...I need God to help me with that as well

Thank you God for the call yesterday to be on a television show...
How funny, ironic and so pleasantly unexpected.
I'm beginning to feel more alive then I've felt in years
I now see the plan a little better, that I needed to recuperate
and be in my "monk" state for a couple of years so that I can
come out of my cocoon new and recharged...
Now I only want to trust that you are guiding me in all ways

My new kitty Nadia Comenici has already helped me in
so many ways...all my cats...I can truly see God in all
animals...they are the total embodiment of the divine

that which I make an earnest effort to see in all people
not always sucessfully, but then again, I am only human
and a cynical, skeptical yet optimistic one at that...

Do I ramble? Yeah, so? What are you going to do about it

Date at 7:00 sans cats...no one to protect me but my spirit
within to guide me...OH GOD OH GOD OH GOD...
What else can I say?

I have completed the second part of my morning practice for today

Thank you God for helping me in re-creating one so that I can stay
tuned, in tune with what is really important in life...at least for the first
hour of the day....you know, I know it's in and out for the next 15 hours or so....

Love,
Y

it's morning and I've already had a cup and a half of coffee
I now have three pussy-cats and I'm in love with them all
the older ones as well as the new cute slightly off one
I have a date Friday night and I'm actually excited
matchmaker.com ah oh...could be trouble
lots to do till then
sex would be nice, but not Friday oh no, not yet
but kissing?
maybe

one cat's in the umbrella stand
the other two are elsewhere
when will I get paid to write?
the sun is out and I have things to do
before the new year begins
a whole new year with God in charge
that's what I'm going to believe next year
it's much easier and now w/three cats
it will be easier to get "my hands off of things"
see ya next year.............

got a new little kitty....she's so fucking cute.
what to name her
two other cats named: Cyd Charisse
and Honey West....
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

cats rock
cats rule
cats keep me alive
you are a fool